i'm tired bout that

salam.
it's been along time i've never update this blog.pity of u bloggy.sorry cause i'm busy with my work these days.gosh lot of work to do since i'm entering new semester.thanks to semester break, cause of it,i can update it a lil bit.hee~

okay.first month of study enough to make me become "kelam kelibut".
haiyakkk.now i know,to graduate study not as easy as it is look.many paper work to be submitted,
assingment to do,application for further my study.etc~

so i thought these break can make my head and brain get enough rest and peaceful.but it seems not to be.
i dont know why,my mum seems like to be anger 24/7.everything i'm done was wrong in her eyes.
despite of.i'm become upset.whattttttaaaa...[chilll ss]

okay enough to say bout my lil prob here.
actually i wanna story about what i'm done about a month.
if i'm not mistaken i've already story about someone i adore so much since i'm in form1[hingusan+selekeh lagi]
ya bout him..early of the month,he appear.not infront of me of course because he study so far away.
he appear at yahoo messenger.tp be honest,before this he never to "buzzing" me.
[selalu i je okay buzz beliau.kate pon adore]
what reaction should i said here.of course i'm so excited and happy because he came back after one and half year,he never gave me any news.even one.
suppose i need to "sembur beliau balik"..."kenapa tetbe muncul balik"
but i'm totally excited bout it then just go through what he wanna told me and update his life.
i become happier.at that moment i'm the happiest person okay.
i had asked bout his lover.not really lover but he do like this girl which is my friend too.but the answer just like this "dia okay je la kat sana tu"
just it?? huh?
okay.so close bout "her"...just bout he and i. we chit chat all day and all night.
he still care bout my study,my amalan
he asked me..."solat jaga x?di awal waktu ke di akhir waktu?berjemaah ke x?
Quran baca?da juzuk berapa?hafal x juzuk amar?
ma'thurat jaga x?
pergaulan dgn rakan2 macam mana?

ooo...my answer for all his ques...biar beliau,aku dan Tuhanku sahaja yang mengetahui.


see.this kind of person and this type of man i seeking for.
just like i mention at the right of this blog.
but he refusing me.maybe i'm not good to be beside him.
ya i know..."perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik dan sebaliknya"

and i just not so good to and not the choosen one to make him as mine.
this only my prediction and story.

selebihnya i serahkan bulat2 kepada Tuhanku.
DIA maha mengetahui yang terbaik untukku.
semoga aku dapat seseorang yg mencintai Tuhanku agar dapat membimbing aku ke jalan Nya..Ameen~~


why i so upset bout this.because he gone again~~
he is so unpredictable.but i'm still adore him~